Relinquishing The Battle


“When you feel overwhelmed and you’re tempted to take everything into your own hands, you have to make yourself be still. The battle is not yours. The battle is the Lord’s.”

Overwhelmed is an understatement. I am currently in the middle of a move, a move from home back into the dorms for my sophomore year of college. The past week has consisted of packing up my belongings, playing a life size game of Tetris to fit everything in the car, and a six hour drive through the middle of nowhere with my parents. Next, I have a four hour time span to pick up my keys and move in before I hit the ground running. I have packed this year to the brim and am honestly not sure how I am going to balance all I have said yes to. I’m overwhelmed and tempted to take it all into my own hands.

Within the past year I have visited the emergency room twice, both times
within a six week period. The first night was filled with x-rays, a ct scan, a full blood panel, and a great deal of pain medication. I was told nothing could be done and was sent home. My second visit proved to be even more interesting than the first; yet again, there was nothing that could be done. I had decided to take my life and my health in my own hands, I was relying on my own strength. I had failed, but through this failure I found such sweet truth. “My flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” [Psalm 73:26] To say the Lord is my portion is to say He alone is enough to completely satisfy. He is enough to completely satisfy us and will be the strength of our hearts. Forever.

So here I am. Tempted to take it all into my own hands. The Lord offers an invite “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.” [Matthew 11:28] Yesterday, I was given the opportunity to rest. If you know anything about me, you know how significant the ocean is to my life. I receive tremendous joy from spending time on the coast. [ever heard of the song oceans? it has a special place in my heart: “So I will call upon Your name and keep my eyes above the waves. When oceans rise my soul will rest in Your embrace. For I am Your’s and You are mine.”] Knowing that, you can see why I jumped at the option to spend even just a few moments on the beach yesterday. Just as I was about at my breaking point I received rest in His presence.

This battle is not my own, it is His. Personally, I constantly need to be reminded of this. If you’re like me, check out Exodus 14:14. “The Lord will fight for you, you only need to be still.” That’s it, be still. So yes, I am still overwhelmed but I’m ready. Ready to take this next year by storm and relinquishing this year to Him.


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