Not in Control and Never Alone


The latest version. I am on my knees. Beyond stumbling. Today has been full of situations outside of my control. I like to tell myself I am in control and that I fight my own battles. Well, I could not be more wrong. As I attempt to process all that has happened in the past twenty-four hours God sends to me a dear friend. Normally I would be annoyed. Telling God I like to be alone and that I can handle things myself. Well, he likes to make sure I know otherwise.

As Christians we are created to live in community [1 John 1:7] and know that The Lord is our advocate and eternally fighting for us [Exodus 14:14]. So, with this in mind, I reluctantly opened my heart. This individual in particular always seems to share with me the right words exactly when I need them. This time it was no different. I was feeling as if my recent actions and situations were not deserving of God’s love or forgiveness. Wrong again.

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.” [Ephesians 2:8-9] Perfect, right? It does not matter what I do, if i feel I deserve it or not. Simply through faith because of God’s infinite grace, I am saved and I have an advocate. 

God is continuously showing me that I am created to live in community with other Christians and that I must put my faith in him allowing him to fight for me. An “experienced” Christian might see this all as common knowledge, but to a “newbie” like myself it’s not. I may not be in control, but I have nothing to worry about, I am living in the grace of God.


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